Is this love real or is it just an illusion?

I love myself, I want you to love me, when I feel down, I want you above me, I search myself, I want you to find me, I forget myself, I want you to remind me.

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time, I want what's yours and I want what's mine, I want you but I'm not giving in this time.

Whatever I said, whatever I did, I didn't mean it, I just want you back for good...

Half of the time I pretend that I'm fine and I keep it inside...

Girls with asses like mine, don't talk to boys with faces like yours.

There's always gonna be that one boy who makes your knees shake, stomach flutter and heart break...

And I'm just setting myself up for another heart breaking fall...

And I need to get all these memories of "us" out of my head, cause baby they're just making me wanna cry.

You promised me you would be there for me whenever I needed you to be, but yet you weren't there those times when I needed you the most.