And that was it. All this buildup to a great leap and I didn't fall or fly. Instead I found myself back on the edge of the cliff, blinking, wondering if I'd ever jumped at all. It's not supposed to be like this.

I know some are counting on God above or methadone to kill way and to take away the pain. I feel for the lost and empathize the cost for calamity for what I've seen.

Sometimes I think I'm gonna lose my mind. But it don't look like I ever do. I've loved so many people everywhere I went. Some too much and others not enough.

There is something I want you to know. I think you know exactly what it is. I didn't want to save you. I didn't want to save you. I set our house on fire to watch it burn.

I wait for the day when I forget who you are, when the sound of your name is old and worn, the days I won't remember why I needed you so bad.

It hasn't been a long time, and we haven't been talking late into the night or even hung out enough times that I can't count on my fingers. But we've talked enough for me to know I want to pursue this. You make me smile, and for now that's enough

Leave me alone, tonight I just wanna stay home. I've got a darkness that I have to feed. I've got a sadness that grows up around me like a weed. And I'm not hurting anymore, I'm just spiraling in.

Curiosity got the best of me this time but it won't shake my destiny. Just trying to learn how not to get burned but the surface of the sun is always raging

You wore me like a new summer style appraised by a designer and textile, but you wore me out until I was no longer in. They'll buy you up and you'll stay afloat, but when your ship sinks they'll slit your throat and you've sold yourself to it.

I wanted the hard, disgusting, saddening and empowering truth. The kind of truth that makes you seem like a lunatic to people. The truth that keeps you heavily dosed on some sort of narcotic so you don't lose your sanity.