I thought my life is over but looking at my friend and how she is dying every day makes me feel so guilty

I cant belive i let my fear get the best of me

:[ You make me cry :[
:[ I wish i can show you :[
:[ How much it hurts :[
:[ But for some reason :[
:[ I want to be with you :[
:[ no matter how much times i have to try :[

- Never let the inner you get small always let others know how you feel is the answer -

** For you I forgot my self **
** For you i've hurt myslef **
** Mum wont stop crying **
** But still I look at the poison on the shelf **

Life is short so make the most out of it
you never know when it ends

Dont say i love you without meaning it

Either walk away
or either stay
but i don't think
i can accept you as i did before
because I've changed my way

You scream at me when i say i wish i die sooner then i should
but when i was in hospital how come you never showed up?

Khud keh ker kabhi alvida na kehna keh gaye tum.
likin ab ki baar kahangey hum
kay kabhi alvida na kehna