I'm sorry I'm such a disappointment dad... I wish I could be your perfect little angel like I used to be but I am the FARTHEST thing from perfect...

I am such a mistake... and I hate myself for it...

Everytime I see you holding onto her the pain cuts like a knife making wounds that never cure...

My eyes hurt from crying, my heart aches from trying, my wrist burns from cutting and in the end i still have nothing...

I wish I could run far enough to get away from myself... its got to be easier than dealing with the feelings I've felt...

Once there was a girl... she felt so alone and empty inside... no one told her she was pretty... and no one really cared...

that girl just happens to be me...

Silent tears and silent screams haunt my world and my dreams...

I'm going to smile like nothings wrong. Talk like everythings perfect. Act like its all a dream and pretend its not hurting me...

I close my eyes and dream of what could be... I open them and see what I don't want to be...