I am as special you,
I may not be as happy...

I am so very sorry,
But you just cannot know...

I came to you for help,
I was calling, reaching out to you...

I couldn’t save you.
I tried to pull you...

I don’t know where I stand
With you my friend...

Small feet pad around the cold lino
With no real meaning...

I shall kill myself upstream,
So my blood gently flows...

I shall not last the week,
Things are beginning to fade...

I want to die,
And I can say that...

I would jump in front of a train
To end my searing pain...

I'm slipping backwards,
To a place I've been before...

They placed you in my arms.
I was too scared to breathe...