All those Decembers that Ill have to spend without...
I wont forget your radiant smile...

It's so hard to forget all the things that mean...
But it brings pain when you think about it...

It numbs the pain
Like a suicidal train picks up passengers...

It turned to coal
It rust, it rots...

Go back to the days when it was so fun
The innocents of when you were young...

Hate you? Love you?
Make up your mind...

Theres a cloud in the sky
That holds a story in my mind...

So many things wish I could say
Every time I get the chance I run away...

Crying tears in my eyes
Hating you was only a disguise...

If I could turn back time
I would go to the memory in my mind...

She had a drinking problem starting at sixteen
Followed by coke and addictions to morphine...

I'm writing this in blood I just want to let you...
No matter what I'm told the saying will always go...