I want to kill my self nothing is the same any more every one was happy when i was misserable and now that im geting better everyone is cring

Now i cry for you when your happy
i lost your kid and is your fauld
you dicided to go with her and forget about me

I know you still love me even thought your with her, you call me when your not with her, you say you miss me when your mad at her, why do you do this plz just let me be!