Wanting to die,
yet too scared to take my own life,
I'll be forever stuck in this hell I call a home

Take the blade to your wrist
tell yourself it will all be over soon
take the time to let in all the second thoughts
and then make your final decision

Just like an old puzzle even when you put a heart back together some pieces will always be missing.

The only time I feel whole is when I can feel the touch of the blade.