How do you look someone in the eye, someone who is your bestfriend and lie about your feelings towards them?

Holding on to a fake existence.

Some day i will look back and realise that it was only you that i ever loved..I love you.

Whenever i think of you
my guard falls to the ground.
what the **** happened to us?

Dont get me wrong i do really care about you.
i guess i just gave up hope that anyone could possibly fall in love with me..
A very long time ago.

Im sorry i dont understand how your feeling,
But i do know what its like to be hurt,
I do really care about you..
I guess i just gave up hope that anyone could possibly fall in love with me..
..And then you gave me hope..

I gave up feeling any emotician when they all left.