If the love is causing you only pain
causing you to go insane...

My inner most desires
Dark as the cold coals of dead fires...

I have been molding my mind
Changing what I am in any given time...

I say I love her
But all I seem to do is hurt her...

I fell to the ground and shattered
My mind laid on the ground tattered...

What is my she thinking
What I have heard has left my heart sinking...

I am happy that I saw her
Though I was really nervous to be there...

I hate him so much
For hurting her heart with his touch...

In the utter blackness of my dreams
so strange and bizarre yet it seems...

Its not like I did not know it would happen
I knew it would its how things are but...

Unable to remember the past clearly
I now get memories that cant be real...

Thinking you deserve nothing
And so desperate for anything...