There's a ghost in me
who wants to say "i'm sorry"
doesnt mean i'm sorry.

ghosts
ladytron
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Sometimes we prefer the darkness
because in the darkness we only see
what we choose to see

Everything was spinning out of control
it was all so wrong
i saw the flicker of sadness
turn to anger on your face
but in a split second it disappeared
your eyes glazed over
&you picked up another beer from the case
completely numb to it all

And once again i am here
cause even now when i think of you
the butterflies are still there
and the saddest part is
i'm still the only one to blame

x

&the years keep on passing
faster and faster
time is on the move
even tho its standing so awfully still
an image flickers past
a smiling face just out of grasp
has never had so much to reveal
and this loneliness has never felt so real

All that im holding onto
is knowing that when im sitting outside
looking up at the stars
you're sitting in the same darkness
looking up at the same stars
despite the thousands of miles separating us
[x]

Everyday, seven takes of the same old scene
Seems we're bound by the laws of the same routine
Gotta talk to you now 'fore we go to sleep
But will we sleep once I tell you it's hurting me?

[I Hate This Part Right Here]

Can't believe its been six months already.

Still miss you like crazy.

xO.

She lays down to sleep every night
free to think about whatever she wants
but in amidst all her dreams and fears
thoughts of you get mingled with her tears.
and all she wants
all she really really wants
is one more night to hold you tight.
[x]

I remember crawling into your bed
a few days after you died
I was desperate for something familiar
but what I didn't perceive was that
familiar was harder to take than
the irrevocable difference.
[x]