Im sad, Im tired i been living in respit for over a week and i feel myslef giving up i cant do this no more

My mom & dad can team against me and make me feel bad and like i keep screwing up, but in the end im like this today becuz of them, only if they loved me only if they cared i would be so much different with me with my world

You never take that second to ask me whats wrong, U never spend even an hour with me, and all of the sudden you want me to stay with u????

Itz alwayz been just me, now he cares, just not about my feelings , my dad doesnt even know me

I am lost i have no family i have no were to go and i dont even have myself im so scared

Its funny dad how u want to help me know when u never did befor i dont need u. I dont know what itz like to have u care about me

Im going to bed. My head hurts, my eyes hurts. Most of all im so sad and im numbing myself from my life.. i just want to pretend!!!!!!!!!

Now letz play pretend, so i can get on with my life , and tell everyone im fine, and hid everything i feel , so i cant be hurt

I hope there proud, my family got me scared against talking. I can feel myself shutting down. I just cant be strong much longer.

I am strugling tonite, I want my mom and dad to be proud of me , i want them to love me, but they wont and i cant relize that, They distoryed my life