What more could i ask for this christmas i got what i wanted a family, i just wish they didnt feel like strangers

Today im really thinking about ending my life, ending my pain, and no one seem's to care

My dads back in my life, i feel suicide cuz im in the middle of my family

I had my dad this year for thanksgiving i couldnt be happyer, but y do i still want to die

Rain comes down around me, this time no one can no longer see my tears, They thunder blocks out my crys and yelles. With lighting coming down missing me every strike it takes , im scared and I cnat do much more.I am alone in this storm called life

It seems like everytime i try to talk im talking to a wall and thing things are bouncing right back at me and hitting me harder and harder

You were never there for me, You always came and go, Y do u care now? Is it beacuz u relize how much u took away from me and distroyed my life, dont give me all your opions there not needed i know have my own, In the future i will be happy

I dont understand what people r telling me, I dont understand all the "skills" i should be using, I dont understand alot and that y im struggling but no one understands

Im trying so hard , i cant try any harder, im starting to fall again and this time i cant do it on my own

It doesnt matter what people say, i know me the best and i just dont care what they tell me