I want to just stay home today and not bother with anyone, but i know i need to keep doing this stuff of "trying" to get better, when i relize its all hopeless. ughhh

Everyday it pops into my mind i try to fight it , but yet i dont want to live like this, i wanna let go and fly away

If anything i think im more dissapointed in my self... everything is makeing me worse. i just want it to stop!

I wish my mom would stop telling me what to do with my life, After all she doesnt know how hard it is, hasnt it always been her going guy to guy, at least im trying on my own

I dont understand why your trying now, its weird being with you, im scared, but once again i love you so much, i jsut dont know

Stop trying to get me to make my sister like you,and want you, you dont know how bad u hurt us, I learned to block things out, but not everyone can

No dad you were the one that hurt us and walked out of are life, you cant fix the past , stop your lieing,far from a father, i cant help it my sister wont forgive you, i still cant i block you my pain

You asked me to stop, You asked me why im like this, Guess you killed me in the best way possible, You took so much away, Will i ever be ok :(

Wow how stupid do you think i am? today in front of people you made it seem like im the fk up and you are the perfect family, i just hate everything!!!

Im loosing hope, i wish someday i would have someone thats want me and will be there always