I dont think I ever felt so dead before!!!

<When i was little i started to relize family comes and goes but friends stay forever>

Dad if i could say something to you i would say i sorry and i love you.

I miss my dad i really do i didnt get chance to say goodbye its true all good things come to an end

&& so i decided i dont want to talk because then it will lead to crying then to cutting then to dieing

I cant fix what i have done, there is nothing i can do to make it better, i am sorry i made a nother mistake i just want to mean something to you

&& i will be ok i just need some time alone

&& so you said we needed to talk, i listened its just another person in my life who im close to that will come and go, its scary and it hurts

~ I want to talk tonight but i Know she wont listen, Mom your in your world of pretend so you dont have to deal with the truth ~

~ My family and other people, killed me were no one can see ~