I am struggling so much... i cant fight these feelings

Im going back to school tomorrow.. its everything i want.. but i no im not ready.. im not stable enough.. what do i do? i cant give up :(

I am back to my old ways, at the party last night i drank, i smoked and woke up with guys i dont even know!!! i felt like everyone cared,i was so popular, i am killing myself slowly and i cant stop,,, im so unhappy,, im so lost

I am the life of the party,i just dont give a fk, its the only time i feel normal, no one knows how im so messed up,,, i want everyone to go away, i want to be alone, i cant take anymore pain

Spending this last month in the hospital showed me how much i really hate my life, i really dont care anymore!!!!

In the hospital i made some great friends, now im home and falling apart once again

I will never forget this time of year when i thought your love ment everything to me, now i have someone new its amazing how much i grew

I love him, Am i jumping without looking again? im not sure

Live or die my life is like a fukn suicide

I am falling right back to where i was 3years ago, i cant get out, im crying