I want to just stay home today and not bother with anyone, but i know i need to keep doing this stuff of "trying" to get better, when i relize its all hopeless. ughhh

Really??? because im doing the best i can

Im so hurt, i just wanna say screw it and mess up, i dont want to keep trying!!!!!

Crying all night, trying to deal with stuff, Cutting intell i cant stop, this is my life now, its never going to change!

I look in the mirror i hate the person staring back, i hate myself, im the one that distroyed my family, friends and everything else

The cuts i made tonight tells my story that i keep trying to fight,,, How can i feel so much better but look so much sicker?

As in other poems i wrote, My ghoast keeps taking over cuz im so unhappy i dont want to be here then puff another ghoast comes about

I wish you where here, only you took the time to understand me, everyday its harder, im sorry for everything, im sorry for pushing you away, I just loved you so much i couldnt say goodbye

So being in maine again just wasnt the same as last year with you, im sorry you had to leave, nothing has been the same for me, i lost everything

Will you come back from heaven and take my hand and let me fallow you, I cant do this anymore