I cant talk to anyone anymore, Cuz im affarid what i will say. only this razor blade can help me now

Doing better have my sister :) i wish she knew how much it ment to me to spend time with her, it saved me :)

They say in time i will be ok, well time is running out for me

I dont think i ever felt this hurt, i want to die so bad i want it all to go away

&& I wounder why in the pictures I look so happy when in life im so hurt????

I feel as if i cant handel anymore i feel like i dont know how much i can go on im getting scared away from everything

&& im so confussed i dont understand whats right and wrong

&& so you told me what im doing is wrong im confussed i learnd this from my mom and dad now im lost i dont know what to think ,how to act, what to do everything i learnd was a lie

Im so affarid of what i might loose next but you know what? after loosing so much nothing comes as a surprise anymore

This is why i need time on my own i cant say goodbye anymore