~ I want to talk tonight but i Know she wont listen, Mom your in your world of pretend so you dont have to deal with the truth ~

&& so you said we needed to talk, i listened its just another person in my life who im close to that will come and go, its scary and it hurts

&& i will be ok i just need some time alone

I cant fix what i have done, there is nothing i can do to make it better, i am sorry i made a nother mistake i just want to mean something to you

&& so i decided i dont want to talk because then it will lead to crying then to cutting then to dieing

I miss my dad i really do i didnt get chance to say goodbye its true all good things come to an end

Dad if i could say something to you i would say i sorry and i love you.

<When i was little i started to relize family comes and goes but friends stay forever>

&& so I relized noone can help me with this im gonna have to do this on my own, But i dont have there answers

&& he should be happy becuz im not telling anyone the other ways he hurts me and i wont becuz im to scared