&& so tonight I will get drunk and you will finally be out of my head

Just like a snowman you build it you enjoy it and then it gets tired and melts, well thats how life is your happy then people keeps adding more and more and doesnt listens to u intell its to late

If they want to lie to me , that's fine it wont bother me i can lie to

I just cant understand how someone can leave there kid to fight this on there own

&& my friends told me the truth comes out when were drunk, well i found it out tonight that its really true , but y do i still love u?

& my best friend called me today, we made plans, i know he mite be the only person in my life that will never go away,he helps me with alot hes always there for me , im starting to really like him , then y am i so scared?

And.. so i cut, then closed my eyes and hoped I would die

Today as I cut I relize all the bad is coming out at me I finally feel a little free

I never knew what it was like having a family and i relize i never will

&& its gonna come a time when she has to choose him or me becuz i cant be here waiting to see if im gonna get hurt