I feel so bad, i try so hard i just let out people bring me down i hate my life

The only way out of this will be suicide , cuz i cant try any harder. im doing my best

Im so sad and scared, i cant do anymore, I need my friends to help me with keeping me buzy cuz im scared

I cant stop cutting its stoping me from crying its stoping me from talking

I dont want to talk anymore about what has happened at home cuz im so scared and idk what to do

I am strugling tonite, I want my mom and dad to be proud of me , i want them to love me, but they wont and i cant relize that, They distoryed my life

I hope there proud, my family got me scared against talking. I can feel myself shutting down. I just cant be strong much longer.

Now letz play pretend, so i can get on with my life , and tell everyone im fine, and hid everything i feel , so i cant be hurt

Im going to bed. My head hurts, my eyes hurts. Most of all im so sad and im numbing myself from my life.. i just want to pretend!!!!!!!!!

Its funny dad how u want to help me know when u never did befor i dont need u. I dont know what itz like to have u care about me