I want to try really hard but it seems the more i try people give me more to handle and i cant take anymore

&& lets get drunk and pretend these last couple of years didnt happing

&& it seems that everything that once made me happy im giving up on

When i was little life seemd all wounderful nothing seemed wrong now i relize everything was wrong , the question is now how do i deal

Will i ever be what you want me to be, what do i choose ?

I want to forget everything and stop living in the past but if the past is the only way i can have you then im not gonna take that away from myself

&& for every mistake are parents make were the ones to suffer the most!

I was talking to someone last night they told me when im with them i pretend to be happy and i have so much energy but when they talk to me all they can see is someone whos not there whos really hurt and lost i love my friends they help me relize alot!!!

&& today i went to this important type thing everyone seemed so happy i didnt feel like i belong

&& today im trying to make better choses than what i ahve been doing this week but i feel so stuck