& if something happened to me and i die people would only care in the beginning then they would move on

&& maybe when your mom and dad see's you laying there dead, maybe then they will finally relize that you just needed them in your life to love you

As i looked around today i relized im much different than these people around me i felt like no one understood , i wanted to be alone

And so you told me i had to go tonight, i know i cant handle anymore, y am i always there for you and your never here for me

&& cant you see that your words are slowly killing me

This is are family not his im not going to accept this after what he did to me

&& maybe you can convince my mom of stuff and make her believe u, but my friends r here for me they understand what your like

&& he's just so lucky im not saying how else he hurts me, maybe like with my dad im so scared

Im crying because i dont know what else to do, things r really bad but she wont addmitt it

I just cant discribe how bad i feel im trying to hold on to something thats never gonna be here