Right now my only fear is living

I saw my dad today there was so many words left unsaid

As i looked at u today i was crying, As u looked at me u were laughing thats what hurts the most

Every party seems good in the being, u sneak off with friends get drunk get high do things with guys and have funn but how do u deal when the partys over and your back to reality?

I love him so much, hes a great "boy-friend'" but he isnt for me im getting to hurt , but yet this is the kind of relationship i want

Please anyone message me tonight i really need to talk :(
Thanks

Im trying really hard but what THEY did no one can fix so y should i try to?

She told me the other day that all she could see was pain that i was holding back , Y should i talk about this !!! its no use u cant go back and earse the past , I kno i FU**in tryed :(

Tonight the things in my head r making me want to end my life

I can talk but what the use nothing can discribe the pain i hold inside