Im giving up becuz my past hurts me so bad and i cant find answers and NO one undersands me

I was always that girl that forgave him, i would always love him, I would try to make him smile when he cryed, and when he was high i tryed to give him all i had, now my daddys gone and i sit here all alone

No one will ever understand me like my daddy does :( i love him so much and i wish he was here helping me fight this

Daddy look into my eyes, daddy cant you see im dieing, I dont want to live if i dont have you

So this little razor blade and my wrist might speed up my life coming to a end

They asked me if i cut today, i shook my head no, when i did so much but i want to keep it to myself cuz i cant discribe the pain i feel

Moments like this i wish he would be proud of me and stick by my side

Im not sure what love is, bu tall i know is i really love him isnt that enouf

I havnt talked about whats bothering me in days and now i cant its like im alone fighting the monsters in the dark

Does it make my mom proud seeing me crying seeing me bleeding like she had no part of my past why does she bother with me now