I feel as if i cant handel anymore i feel like i dont know how much i can go on im getting scared away from everything

&& im so confussed i dont understand whats right and wrong

&& so you told me what im doing is wrong im confussed i learnd this from my mom and dad now im lost i dont know what to think ,how to act, what to do everything i learnd was a lie

Im so affarid of what i might loose next but you know what? after loosing so much nothing comes as a surprise anymore

This is why i need time on my own i cant say goodbye anymore

Its funny how when you start to enjoy your life and you start to see were you belong then it all gets taking away then again you relize your on your own

&& so i started cutting again because i cant stand the person i am

&& this razor blade looks like the only thing in my life that will stay and not leave me

&& so i looked at this razor blade i relize im here alone with my best friend that wont ever give up on me!!

&& if i could only call you that one phone call could of saved my life!