Im holding so much inside of me this week its making me want to die

I picked up the phone today to call and ask for some help , i then put it down i dont have time to talk cuz everyone can here how much longer do i have to wait

I was at disney world they said how dreams come true i though about it my best dream is dieing with my mom and dad by my side thats all i ever wanted

My dad finally gave me what i always wanted for him to notic me

The best gift i got on my birthday was that little letter that ment so much to me

The words you said ment everything to me

Did you ever feel so alone that when you finally ment a guy you took the attation whatever he gave u than somehow u feel gulity

&& today i found out he never loved me it was just a game so he could use me, so much for trust

& today is the day she tryed to commet suicide now she just lays here in pain

God i cant find my place in this world, no one understands me, Y wont you just take me out of this alfull place