Y is everyone changing all my treatment, Cant they see things were working alot better befor they did this!!!

I feel sad and hopeless, will i ever feel like im doing something right?

I want to run away from myself :( so hurt so lost i wont ever belong

I am shutting down once again, just please leave me alone i cant deal anyone

The other night i walked out in frount of a car i was hoping it would kill me by mistake, Im so unhappy :( please set me free

Im gonna be ok but i made it this far, i just need to work on so much, But this blade will help me this morning i taught myself how to deal :)

Im feeling ok time to watch tv then hoping to chill with friends

I will be ok cuz u crazy people are out of my life :)

I kno i need to trust and let go, i need to stop thinking that i always no whats best for me, I just dont kno anymore

They ask me what i think, i just go along, after all i dont feel anything anymore

There all telling me that my family should come first, but sence when did i ever come first to my family???? ya i dont think so