WHat is happing to me? this isnt the girl i want to be

I can believe how everyone treats me, i try to pretend alot, there words hurt so much

I just wish one day i would wake up, and everything would go away, im struggling every day, i dont know if its even worth it anymore :(

Its true you not need to keep bringing it up and compearing me to my sister, i will NEVER be like her, i tryed and im harder to control

THe sad part is, I been gone for way to long, Im not even sure who i am anymore

THey say you cant go home again, but when i think about it did i ever have a home?

I hate when my so called family is always putting me in the middle, im so confussed :(

You told me that you hate me that you wish i died, Well have you ever been a mother to me!! NOoooo

Im loosing hope, i wish someday i would have someone thats want me and will be there always

Wow how stupid do you think i am? today in front of people you made it seem like im the fk up and you are the perfect family, i just hate everything!!!