Crying all night, trying to deal with stuff, Cutting intell i cant stop, this is my life now, its never going to change!

I look in the mirror i hate the person staring back, i hate myself, im the one that distroyed my family, friends and everything else

The cuts i made tonight tells my story that i keep trying to fight,,, How can i feel so much better but look so much sicker?

As in other poems i wrote, My ghoast keeps taking over cuz im so unhappy i dont want to be here then puff another ghoast comes about

I wish you where here, only you took the time to understand me, everyday its harder, im sorry for everything, im sorry for pushing you away, I just loved you so much i couldnt say goodbye

So being in maine again just wasnt the same as last year with you, im sorry you had to leave, nothing has been the same for me, i lost everything

Will you come back from heaven and take my hand and let me fallow you, I cant do this anymore

Everyday i think about how much you believed in me, how you where there for me when everyone else turned away, I remember that day in the hospital i tryed to be strong but someone that goodbye hurt the worse cuz i knew my everything was gone, i miss u

You told me to be strong and hold on, I cant do this without you, Remembering your words, Your little girl is dieing she wants you to come get her, Im living for everyone not myself, please come :(

I fell like i already ran away and got lost in these woods called life, i cant get out :(