[roxy] i'm a mess. my room is too. but its ohk. i'm a terrible example. i put myself in bad situations & then push away the people who can help me. i put my friends before my family. only because my family tries to push me away. i'm a terrible example. mercy, i'm bad at school. its the paying attention part that f**ks me over every time. i let him break my heart over & over again. i can feel so much hurt & have so much to sayy to him, but then as soon as i see him it all goes away. its as if he can take away every ounce of pain & anger i feel. literally i can be doing everything i can to not cry about something he did, but then as soon as he looks at me it all goes away. i don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing. i don't trust people easily at all. i'm not very nice; until u get to know me that is. i don't take shit from anyone, except him. i'm so far from perfect its scary, but its ohk. -------don't u ever try to judge me fool, u don't know what the f**k i've been thru. ---- [smiless-]]