Sick of faking smiles and holding tears..sick of pretending that am the strong gurl who can face anything by her own :)

I've always been waitin 4 the one who could change ma life n make me happy..but i guess ill wait 4ever :)

Boy:i love u
gurl: stop sayin u love me"
boy: but i really do
gurl: i just heard u sayin u love her..
boy: ( silence..)

"its better 2 be frndz"
how can u be frndz with some1 u wana hold everytime u see..how can u be frndz with some1 u cnt bare 2 c with some other gurl

Nthn 2 loose..yet nthn 2 gain..just stuck hollow and alone and THE FAULT IS MY OWN..and the fault is my own:(

When this began i had nthn 2 say..n i get lost in the "nthn" inside of me..i was confused i cnt believe i didnt fall right down on ma face..:(

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems am living??

I am over you..and yes am free from the pain u caused me..but the scars are still in ma heart

Ppl keep on tellin me 2 chill n smile..but y should i smile if i have no reason 2 smile 4..or no1 2 smile 2 :)

So wut if i tell ppl how i feel??
so wut if i be sad instead of fake happy, or just frown instead of a fake smile??
so wut if ppl will think am silly??
no1 carez anyway..:)