i used to think that writing poems was a cheesy way of letting out emotion. but now, i believe it's the only way for me to let it all out. i love writing poems now. ever since a divorce betwen my parents, fights between friends, and billions of tears, my writing book is my bestfriend, it holds all my emotions with in it. it's like a part of me now. and the poems just keep coming in my head, especialy on a bad day. you may realize that most of my poems are depressing, slitting wrist kind of poems, yes, they're all so true. but what can i say, i'm not perfect. never will be. but things are heading in a better direction with me meeting new friends, with my divorce not so messy any more, with my mom's boyfriend getting a job, and just getting along better as a family. i think it will all work out in the end, at least i hope so. and no matter what kind of hard things i go through, and no matter what kind of suicidal thoughts those moments bring, i'll stand as strong as possible. and i hope you'll stay standing too. ever need an arm to help you, let me know. i'll try my best. because i know what it's like o have no one. i know what it's like to feel like ending your life is the only way, i've come so close to it; but i've stopped and i always think, tomorrow might be better, but i'll never know unless i stay alive for it... so i try to stay as chill as possible, take deep breaths in and out. go to bed, and dream for a better day tomorrow.