I've been searching for someone to fill this empty hole in my heart
but the harder i try the more i fall apart
right nowi just want to apologize for all i've put you through
i cant let myself fall in love with you.

One minute your happy, the next minute your mad. lately only your temper can last. everytime we get too high we collapse. and we have to start all over again, you got me questioning whether i should of ever let you in.

Im not alone, i am yours. but im still lonely & i dont know why. i spend my nights crying myself to sleep, & i spend my days driving myself crazy.

Its so hard to love you,
because im not okay myself.

Is he sincere
those words keep ringing in my head
i cant take this shit anymore
i wish all this was left unsaid
im so much more hurt then even i imagined
i cant open my heart up & let him in it.

Sometimes i sit up at night & think
and then i cry my eyes out because im so damn lonely
i just want you right next to me.
i just want you here with me.

Because when you unconditionally love someone, it shows.
& you can't help yourself from losing complete control.
because when you care for them genuinely
ur heart knows where it belongs. automatically.

Even though your not right next to me
i still feel you near me
and when i look up at the stars,
it feels like im right next to you again
distance means so little, when someone means so much .

You think im crazy?
but im just speaking the truth.
would you rather me stand here and lie to you?
i told you from the start im a mess,
and im sorry that i have to find relief in this.

You write such pretty words
but lifes not a story book
loves just an excuse to get hurt.
*not mineeee*