She's grabbing at certain feelings, she can't even explain. its a mix of emotions, old & new. its the way her heart beats faster & faster everytime she thinks of you. what could this feeling be taking over her? only time can tell.

I dont know what it is, i dont recall this ever happening before. i dont get it, i dont want to because its not okay, its not right. these feelings i have for you, deep inside..

Please dont ask why i do the things i do. not worrying about the effects on others, & not worrying about all the pain ive caused you. im just taking the time now, to say im sorry in every single way.

There's no one to stop me no one can block me im goin all the way, dont want you to hold me, you cant control me<3

Lets get away for a little while baby just you & me. we can go to a secluded island or dance on a isolated beach. we need to spend sometime together. i want you to hold me close. sing me songs that remind you of me. & maybe even propose :)

It wasnt the wind that grabbed your shoulder and threw you to the ground. & it wasnt the wind that busted your lip or made brusies up & down your legs. now tell me who is it that makes you so afraid ?

Love constantly tells me no, it mocks me over and over again until it finally gets the best of me. till it sees the toll its got on me, its not going to be be satisfied until i just give up & cry.

She cant even be honest with herself, so who can she be honest with?

Cause i guess i thought if i pretended long enough everything would turn out right. if i faked that smile everyday, if i walked around like everything was okay, then maybe just maybe, everything would turn out that way.

Im sorry i cant love you all, my head holds more than my heart can contain. i may have loved to say your name, but im sorry i just cant love you that way.