I try to fade away in my dream world
& act like everythings okay
but reality has a way of smacking me in the facee.
telling me if i was okay i would think & feel this way.

Ive tried everything to take the pain away.
to put a smile on & fake it another day
but im never alright
nothings ever okay
no matter how hard i try to supress things
they somehow come out anyways.

You wanted so bad to be fake. fake smile. fake charm. fake everything. you break hearts on purpose. and you tear at souls. no remorse. no feelings. nothing inside. you say no one understands you, and your lost in a fake world.

You say you dont care
but we both know thats not true
i know your just using that as a defense mechanism
because its obvious you do.
i can see it in your eyes,
all the feelings you try to hide,
but when your drunk you open up just like a book.

I was enough for him not long ago. i was his number one he told me so. and he still means the world to me just so you know, so be careful when you hold my man. x|3

She laughs at maybe & screams at no. i need you to love me; i dont know when i dont care how. your vision of a perfect world. all of that needs to end now, baby just look deep into my hollow eyes and cease my pain & stop my cries.

& as the sun interjects the moon
the night slowly comes to a end
and so does this one night stand
its time for you to go now,
you've got a girl & ive got a man.

Im sorry i cant love you all, my head holds more than my heart can contain. i may have loved to say your name, but im sorry i just cant love you that way.

Cause i guess i thought if i pretended long enough everything would turn out right. if i faked that smile everyday, if i walked around like everything was okay, then maybe just maybe, everything would turn out that way.

She cant even be honest with herself, so who can she be honest with?