Everybody wonders why she's so promiscuous
one of her mom's many boyfriend's didn't seem to care.
& now she's grown up giving her body away like its nothing.
she was 7, and she had been violated.

You've seen her heart rise and fall
you've been with her through it all
you've stuck with her through everything
so why are you just her shoulder to cry on?
because your only her best friend.

Sometimes i just want to dream up a perfect world. then i picture myself in it. all the crying and the pain would be replaced by smiles & tears of joy. nobody would break my heart & guys would be men, not boys.

& for that spilt moment i couldnt breathe, i was standing there with my heart on my sleeve. if anybody asks my name is jane because this is just gonna be a re-run of the same old another-girl-with-a-broken-heart thing.

One minute your happy, the next minute your mad. lately only your temper can last. everytime we get too high we collapse. and we have to start all over again, you got me questioning whether i should of ever let you in.

Im not alone, i am yours. but im still lonely & i dont know why. i spend my nights crying myself to sleep, & i spend my days driving myself crazy.

Its so hard to love you,
because im not okay myself.

U get mad when i turn the blame on u.
when i play games w/ ur heart,
when i play ur part.
u text me was goody?
i text back who dis?
u tell me u love me
i reply me too
u ask me a question i beat around the bush.
now im the one who has u hooked.

The words are serious but their not true
i feel so stupid for even trusting you
sometimes i think you really have changed
other days i realize you'll always remain the same.

The past is the past
but it still haunts me daily
i want to say i've fallen in love
but all that varies greatly
if i can give up all the pain ive drowned in over the years
then me and you can have something beautiful and real.