She's so full of pain she tries to hide it, but breaks down when she hears your name. you broke her heart & bruised her soul. she will never love again, never once again be whole.

Dont tell me how she hasnt been good to you. dont tell me how she hasnt been there for you. she's just not good enough for you. so just let me try & i will be good to you. just let me try & i will be there for you.
-sarah mclachlan

They say you never show your emotions. i say i have too much pain. they say your always smiling, i say i cry in the rain. they say does anything hurt you i say everything. they say then why dont you show it, i say i show it every night, ok.

Todays the day, im gonna tell him how i feel. my heart's pumpin, adrenaline's rushin, as i dial his number, he answers, i say i have to tell u sum.. he says whats up? all the nerve leaves, & in dissapointment i say, i just got my hair cut today..

It really isnt that hard to understand if you listen. all the hints i give with the things i say, just pay attention.

Ill never change. im still the same old little girl that likes her ice cream slightly melted & her coffee on ice. goin through whatever but smiles like she's fine. no matter what the load, still grins as she bears it..<3

I always catch myself thinkin of you, in my dreams i see you. but i dont belong to you. what am i suppose to do ?

Im feeling so empty inside. i get tears in my ears sometimes. the constant feeling of loneliness. torn souls. i never wanted to know the results of a broken heart.

Wont somebody tell me so i can understand if you love me how could you hurt me so bad..
-aaliyah

How could i do the things i do & not feel any guilt? secrets? yes, i have secrets. we all have secrets. but mine are terrible, atrocious secrets. if revealed, the results could be devastating.