Every minute in the shadows is like a life time in pure darkness.
........... and there seems to be no end to these minutes that are passing and the seconds that are ticking consecutively... enlessly... and much too slowly...

No word can describe what I'm feeling
I feel like the past is just repeating. I thought that for a minute I was happy
But it couldn't last so long . . .I don't know if I am smiling for real. I feel like a soulless body...

~*I may have changed, but its life and time that did it, Experiencing and learning from my past. So that's me now. Like it or not, I don't live to seek anyones pleasure *~

Just when I thought everything was going right... just when I though I'd never look down... when all I wanted to do is fly and not come down... the tears held inside start weighing me down. and the pain keeps holding me back...

Dont know what im feeling, cant explain this emptiness inside... i cant seem to understand this undying pain.

Holding on to her Friendship was like holding on to a cliff... so steep i had to let go... I know she's not worth the tears or the pain she caused...

I will draw smiles on my face, even though with force
I will say I'm fine and happy, even though I know it just a lie.
I will cover my vivid scares and hide my pain so I never have to explain;
And cry only in the rain and cover the stain.

Not knowing myself anymore makes me happy.

Living a nightmare of everyday
Makes dreams all fade away
Hope of a better tomorrow dies
And trust is lost through lies

So much sad moments in life and so little happy ones that u start to wonder if the happy ones ever existed...