The pain dat hurts da most is pain u get when u dont know wat ur feeling, who u r, nd when u dont no wat u want from life anymore nd when u dont see a reason worth living 4....
its a killing pain..

Ur baby girl....
dats all i ever wish 2 be...
its the only thing i ever wished for
and yet its da only wish dats not coming true...

Tears I've Cried last night
seem 2 clear my eyes nd improve my vision... the vision of the world i had 2 leave cuz im no longer 12. nd the vison of entering the world of 15.. that i dread very much, knowing its a world of hell...

U can walk in and out of my life as u please.... u can leave ur foot prints but all i gotta do is erase them cuz im a girl who seen too much of the world and too sad and tired 2 care about anythin anymore..

*** once u start carving ur diary... its very hard 2 stop, u probably won't be able to, n being counciled feels so wrong cuz in the first place... u wouldn't have started cutting if u were able 2 talk about it***

No word can describe what I'm feeling
I feel like the past is just repeating. I thought that for a minute I was happy
But it couldn't last so long . . .I don't know if I am smiling for real. I feel like a soulless body...

~*I may have changed, but its life and time that did it, Experiencing and learning from my past. So that's me now. Like it or not, I don't live to seek anyones pleasure *~

Just when I thought everything was going right... just when I though I'd never look down... when all I wanted to do is fly and not come down... the tears held inside start weighing me down. and the pain keeps holding me back...

Dont know what im feeling, cant explain this emptiness inside... i cant seem to understand this undying pain.

Holding on to her Friendship was like holding on to a cliff... so steep i had to let go... I know she's not worth the tears or the pain she caused...