What is trust,but dependency on lies?

F**k maturity,and every word I ever spoke to you.
I've never regretted anything more in my life.
I cling to you with every ounce of energy I have.
Damn you for giving me a reason too.

I miss who you use to be.
Am I nothing more then memory?
'Cause it meant soo much more to me.
Don't blame this on maturity.
It's been 3 months,I still don't see.
Please,I need some clarity.