I look back on the years where I felt alright,
The days where I lived with a smile on my face...

I look in the mirror, what's this I see?
Who is this girl I've come to be...

I regret everything I do,
Of my sins I wish they knew...

Pain, blood, cuts, and knives,
Only blackened hate still survives...

Someday my love for you will fade,
and I will find someone new...

An aching pain ripping me apart,
A cold deep inside my soul...

Sanity ends, obsession sets in,
When did this confusion and pain begin...

Everyday there's a struggle inside,
Everyday another tear to hide...

I see it there, a beautiful red rose,
though now only a tiny green bud shows...

Hiding behind laughs, smiles, and happiness,
Her bright blue eyes are filled with pain and...

Constant ache, feeling so empty and sick,
Control is lost, my fate I can't pick...

Aching cold, twisted mind,
What is this barrier I'm trapped behind...