There will be no flowers, nor funeral for me.
Just an open furnace and a lot of heat. Throw me in an forget me there, dump the ashes somewhere with no air.

It's cold, I'm turning pale and still coughing blood...
I didn't know cancer turns you into a Vampire...
36hours and still counting.

I guess my stubborn attitude kept me alive...

As the lights are going out and these eyes close while this blood drips... I guess we both get what we want. You want me to die and I want death. I guess death heard your wish

The only bad/good thing about death is saying"Goodbye" since you've said it so often then this isn't a bad thing ay all, Goodbye forever...

This time is the last time, death is done playing tag and may finally win. So as my body grows cold and numb and my breath slowly leaves me, I will fade into the nothing which originally I was.

I'll count the minute as I rip out these stitches and continue to drink just to see how much I can bleed before I'm done. I give it an hour.

Again I wake to find that I've destroyed what I care for so now with a bottle of jack and 151 I'll destroy what no longer needs to be, that which never was.

So this is the true meaning of being a ghost?
I guess I already knew this feeling since it doesn't feel and different than living...

Still I'm nothing, never was and never will be anything. Guess I was never needed after all. So now I'll take my leave. No need on saying goodbye I guess because like me it to will be nothing and will mean nothing