I remember the day you told me
that you cared...

I want to give you something that perhaps you...
I want to let you hear these words and know that...

One more poem
then its time...

Four years after I ended the silence of your...
you decide to reply to my accusations...

I couldn't write this before you died,
but believe me when I say I tried...

I don't know where I will begin
Guess I shouldn't of let you in...

What do I have to do to make you see
that you cannot be a part of this self-sabotage...

I cant eat because i feel sick
but i feel sick because i am not eating...

Experience has shut me down.
The fire of self-rejection burns...

I feel like life is a punishment
no matter what you do...

I wake up inside tormenting dreams
just to find another tattoo...

Yesterday is all that is on my mind,
but I know looking back is just a trap...