As a child I grew up feeling very lonely and having to try to fight those feelings that lie deep inside my mind. I went through a transitional period of my life. It was as if all of a sudden everything around me had fallen apart. Everyday was a battle, and I still take the blame for the things that I did wrong. I never knew what a friend was because I figured I'd never have one. Paper ws my bestfriend, it kept me sane. I was never good for discussing my feelings to anyone; not even y sister, my brother, or any friends of which I never had. I lived my life with my emotions all bottled up inside, and that's not good for you because it'll catch up with you later in life. I was a girl with many talents, but still I was left alone in this cruel world. I changed my image, my personality, and everything about me to fit in; it worked. I had friends now, or should I say acquaintances because they were really just there to be with. We all tend to hide our true self from the outside worldin order to be accepted. We are never sure what we want ot share and what we want to hide. As we accept it we become more comfortable with ourselves and with others. We constantly run from our weaknesses hoping that they will soon go away. I faced mine and I realized that I was anything but perfect in this world of unknown souls. Back then I didn't have the release of poetry to fall back and reply upon, but once I was introduced...I was hooked; it became my anti-drug.