&& i feel no bravery just sadness and i think to myself maybe it is all worth it... to end it all and put me out of my pain... but then i think of those who will be left alone... so now i just fade away and pretend like nothing is wrong

{wAt wouLd it t8 for U [to] noTice} da:
[paIn] she fEels
[liFe] sHe miSses
[crAzy] shE suFfocates
[huRt] shE caRries
[loneNess] haUntin her
[tEars] shE cRys
[daMage] dAt haS beEn dUn
[scArs] shE hiDes
[deAth] shE craVes

I miss the times when i felt alive... i cut.. i bleed.. i cry.. i feel nothing... so i think to myself why dont i just die... {what is there to live for??}

You see me as just a pretty [little] girl... but the thing is I am only [little] which means you have to stop [touching] me...

Im sick of feeling like a used up s#*t
i wish some guy would see me for me and not my body. .
beauity is more than skin deep. .

Am i cursed or something??
i have lost 3 people in three months. .
i dont think i could live through the 4th. .

Whats wrong with me. . why cant i get over it. . its time to grow up. . but im haunted. . i cant do this. . where do i turn. ?

Here in the darkness i know myself. . cant break free until i let it. . why cant i let it go. . anything is better then to be alone. . in the end i guess i had to fall. .

I dont wana lock me up inside. . i dont wana forget how it feels. . i dont wana forget. .

Pfft everything is soo gay. . haha. . im over the world. .