Since when did it become the childs responibly to take charge of the family ? ?

Im so sick of being haunted by your face. .
i wish you were dead for what you did to me. .
i wish i was dead for having to live with what you did to me. !

I want to bleed. .
i want to cut. .
i want to feel that way again. .
but i cant. . because i promised you. .
but your not always here. .

Im not a shy person. . i believe that if you like someone then you should go for it. . so why cant i make up my mind if i like you or not. ?

Im real . . i live my life to the limpt. . now i can breathe again i can breathe again. . cos im real. . n i cant go on without you. .

Pfft everything is soo gay. . haha. . im over the world. .

I dont wana lock me up inside. . i dont wana forget how it feels. . i dont wana forget. .

Here in the darkness i know myself. . cant break free until i let it. . why cant i let it go. . anything is better then to be alone. . in the end i guess i had to fall. .

Whats wrong with me. . why cant i get over it. . its time to grow up. . but im haunted. . i cant do this. . where do i turn. ?

I cant do this all on my own. . i need your help. . reach through and help me before i die. !