I glance outside my window,
looking past the hedgerow...
All I can do is smile,
& pretend that I'm ok...
You'll never know the life I've lived,
or how many tears I've cried...
Within each heart beat there is a pain.
For every swallow the pain will gain...
Watching my reflection fall and crash,
like a feeling of whip-lash...
I sit here as I think -
what happened to pinky swears...
I'm sad that you left.
You left me all alone...
Swallow free from will.
Just take the god damn pill...
You think you can push me around.
Then use me...
I sat and watched as you backed out in your car.
You didn't get that far...
I look into the mirror,
and I don't see my reflection...
My picture is starting to fade away.
From blue, to brown, to black, to white...