I'm sitting here alone in my room
I can hear their laughter, their voices...

I'm so damn close to the edge of death today
Thought if I tried harder things would be okay...

I'm suppose to the strong one that holds everyone...
Never to fall down or be crushed like a paper cup...

Look into my blue eyes and tell me what you see
Is there any life left in whatever there is of me...

Dear father,
What would you think of me if I chose to leave...

This facade is becoming all I am inside
Dissolving the real face it's just supposed to...

In my heart and my mind these thoughts stab at me
Bleeding out my soul until I'm drowing in the pain...

You've held back for too long
And now the dam has broken away...

One step forward, ten steps back
Easily forgotten in a world full of clutter...

Falling farther and farther down
The wind whipping at my back...

Lightning starts to dance with the rain
The loud crackles of thunder quiver and shake...

These silent wars that we always fight
Screams so loud they cannot be calmed...