You don't get to come back
After years of silent screams...

Concentrated smiles,
Watered down from the rain...

Take a really good look at me
Drink in all of what I've become...

I can't escape the weight on my shoulders.
This baggage constantly dragging me down...

All the times I fought for what felt right
All the minutes I wasted worrying at night...

Tell me what it is I need to do to make you see
Your expectations are higher than I can reach...

These silent wars that we always fight
Screams so loud they cannot be calmed...

Heart is aching.
Pain is rising...

Fading back into the crowd
As you put the mask back on...

I can feel it in the cold fall air
Subtle, yet it is clearly here...

I write this in your memory...
You saw right through the mask I wore...

I don't know what this is I'm feeling
Or why my heads is still spinning around...